2016.

It is comforting to know that 2016 wasn't spectacular for a lot of people. With the memes circulating the internet (see here) to the way news channels are reporting their "Years in Review", this year, for lack of a better term has a been a shitshow. 

Between the death of major celebrities and personalities, to #Election2016, Brexit, Zika, Aleppo, and the release of "Batman vs. Superman" (easily the worst movie I saw this year), this year has been a mess.

Personally, 2016 started out promising for me, I was happy, traveled, moved, got a new job, and a new apartment that wasn't in a borderline condemned building. My birthday came and went, I got involved in Nashville, I went to weddings of both my ZTA little sisters, things were good

But then some things happened; what I knew to be true and good was ripped out from under me with no opportunity to catch my balance. What I knew and thought my life to be, wasn't so. I've spent the past 2.5 months trying to find that balance again, trying to love myself again (see last blog post), and be the Gabbie I knew myself to be. This became my new "watershed" moment; the thing that will forever be a chapter of my life story that'll be hard to tell.

So what have I done? I've lived the heck out of life. I've done a crap ton of yoga, I went to a retreat, I connected with my friends deeper than before, I was an audience member on "Saturday Night Live" and tried to eye flirt with Colin Jost, I saw "Waitress" on Broadway, and even better, I saw "HAMILTON", I volunteered and helped others, I sat in the 7th row of a Beyonce concert (thank you Carrie!), I went to a Third Eye Blind concert and jammed out like it was 1999, I read every book by Cheryl Strayed, I went to a Kelly Clakrson concert and cried at Reba Macintire making an appearance, I made plans for NYE with my best friend Jeff, and most importantly I started practicing gratitude every single day.

While this year has been complete and utter shit, it's critical that we count our blessings, remember what good has happened, and be thankful for the here and now. If you are reading this, you are alive, you are breathing, chances are you are privileged enough to be in a warm place scrolling through this on your iPhone or a laptop, and you are not in war torn country.

I am not a resolutions type, nor do I love them, but I do believe one thing. 2017 will be a year where I love, and love deeply, and making myself the first person I love. 2017 will be a year where I say "no" and be "selfish" from time to time. 2017 will be a year where I am continuously grateful and continue to live the heck out of life, because who are we not to. 

**Also, I'd be remiss not to thank 2016 for "Lemonade", new "Gilmore Girls" episodes, different holiday Starbucks cups, and this Mariah Carey video.